I love.....

Today is my first day back at school after being on Holiday for a week. I have brand new stamps in my passport from Ireland, Venice, Reus/Barsalona, and the East Midlands. I have a Facebook album uploading as i type. And a fabulously ugly Irish sweater that makes me smile every time i see it. I am a world traveler.

This is one thing that i have wanted for so long. and i am so happy and settled, its crazy. I loved being able to have a real conversation with people because we spoke that same language, and to be able to take in the beautify of the place where i was yet i am aware of how much i missed my beautiful Italy. My home. I love Italy, the food, the couture the group of people i live with. I know that i am in my own little amereican bubble wail at school but i love it. There is no real worry that i am feeling with. Every week brings something new and wonderful.

Yet this week i am feeling the need to stay calm. I have to register for Chicago classes this week. Which means that i have to pick a major, and i have no idea what i want to do. I don't have a plan and the feels hard but i am also really ok with it. After Spokane i have described my life as being put in a blender and being purated. But this has caused me to really go back to the basics of who i am, and that is not a bad thing. The last thing that i want anyone to think is that i am complaining or in a really bad place because i am not. I am totally and completely joy filled. I am in a really good place. But here is the list that i have started of who i am and what i love......

I love......
-Growing in my faith
- Studying the Bible
-My family
-helping people
-teenagers
-food
-Art
-History
-Different culture
-Language
-People
-School
-Being different
-Tea and Coffee
- Being Spontaneous
-Looking at all the angles
-Traveling
-Hearing peoples Storys
-Fighting for people to be seen and heard
-Fellowship

These are just a few but they hold a lot more to me then just a basic idea. They hold life. I went thought an entire year of being dead and as i look back on it, i feel so much regret and fear that i lost who i was so much. But God has given me new life. I know so much more now then i did when i graduated. I am changed from the inside out. And although i do not know what is next for me i am at peace. I know that I am loved and cared for. That i am beloved.

This is not the blog that i thought it was going to be when i started however it is what came best today. I have many things that i hope to share as life continues to go but for now this is what i have to offer.

Dear Friend,

Its been a wail and I am at a lost for words to give in restarting our friendship. As you can guess I have been away for a wail. My love for you and all that you bring me got lost in the very debts of my soul but I fond you in a corner waiting along with a few of my hopes and dreams that I had barred. I did not want to turn you into a life less black hole that I used to numb my self. It felt like a lie to come in and wright things when in my life I was bull shiting my way of saying everything was ok. Dearest friend I was told that writhing is not for everyone yet I believe this person to be seriously mislead, you are a true friend and I will not give up on you. Thank you for waiting, for not excepting any mediocre blogs, but for asking me to act on a phase I once wrote "To live passionate adventures". You my friend will only except my stores with passionate adventures. And so now I have some to share. I want to catch you up on my life, and all that is happened. But tonight I am just going to rest with the sweet relief that you offer my soul and the kind welcome you gave me. I have miss you friend. Thank you for taking care of the most venerable dreams and desire of mine wail I was at war, it was a hard battle but I won and now I am excited to be whole once more.

Your beloved friend,
Allison

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