The Lady and the Genteman

I am constantly reminded of my family's strength. But the two that i want to talk about are my closest siblings. And I know that my parents are two of the strongest people on the freaking plant, and in no way do i want to take anything away from that, and i have about 5 other things that i want to post about but this is oin my heart right now and i need it to come first.

I am reminded of Katy's strength everyday. The strength to hold my secrets and hurt along with her's. The strength to be vulnerable. The strength to included me no matter what. The strength to see me when no one else can. The strength to keep asking questions, the strength to keep sharing answers. The strength to stop me. The strength to say i am sorry even thought she is saying it to some who needs to say it as well but knowing they may not. The strength to keep forgiving. The strength to take the knife from me even knowing that i will fight to keep it with the knowledge that she will get hurt in the struggle, and that it will happen again next week. Katy is a Women of God. Katy is a Lady. (Styx- LADY WHEN YOUR WITH ME I'M SMILING!!)

I am reminded of Steven's strength daily. The strength to show me kindness as i am preparing on leaving home to some degree forever. The strength to hear my hard words and except them with grace and humbleness, even if they where not said in that manner. The strength to say i am sorry to someone he could pulverize in 5 seconds flat. The strength to loose wail watching the person who won with complete peacefulness and joy for that person. Having the strength and courage to be a man of vulnerability. Having the strength to stand up for a group of girls who where being degraded by one of his friends and he said NO!!! Having the strength to be in a bad place yet all that he did was right with out insulting or offending anyone. Me and Katy get to see Steven strength everyday and i will never forget what Katy said one night and i could not even say anything because there was no way to add on to it, it was prefect.......She said "Steven i would not want anyone else protecting me other than you." Steven is the brother to four sister, some older some younger. But he has the ability to look into each one and see something that no one else can see, and define that for us. Steven is a Man of Strength. He is a Gentleman.

Anticipating

I am still waiting, its just for different things. I am fine with waiting..... Kinda. :) But i don't know if i came really call them waiting when they are a happy things, funny things, and just things that make me smile so i am not really going to say waiting because that's to sad sounding; lets say....anticipate. :)

Right at this second.....
I am I a place of waiting for my stupid grade on parent portal because it has not changed since last month.

Today.......
I am waiting for my head to feel like its not going to fall off my body because i rock out pretty hard with time, Steven, Mercy Me, family force 5, and David Crowder last night. (Now that is what worship sound like)

This week......
I am waiting for God to provide the answers as to how the heck i am going to be able to afford going to MBI with no way of loans. I knew this but it is becoming more of a question with me getting in.

In general........
Graduation. :)

Redcloud

Two C&M wedding

NO MORE ECONOMICS!!!!!! Even thought i have enjoy our little chats and then are intense flirting it is time to part our separate ways. Its not you its me. I just need someone who is not going to consumer all of my time, by measuring our relationships

To be free of Kash and Kyle W. Although i have enjoyed your childish games, and insecure comments filled with unintelligent sarcasm. I will just have to move on wail you spend yet another summer or school year in high school. (there are really good kids i think but they have just made some really poor choices)

Senior dinner, tea, open house stuff.

Someone to BUST A MOVE!!! (I am listening to Pandora and a gLee song just came on.):) (can you just imagine someone breaking out in song or dance ANYWHERE?! that would be epic!!)

To have required art projects.

To have Katy home.

To have a huge event happen to put with my reminder of this year from new year's eve. Even thought i have had a few so far.(And no this is not suppose to make sence)

Probably a long time from now.......
To have my little romance(B & K)

Waiting on the Lord

In Sunday school this week a guy named Andrew lead worship and it was really good but he really hit on waiting on the lord. As many of you know i have been waiting for some time of my acceptance letter from moody and this week i fond out that i have been excepted to Moody Spokane which is there campus in Washington. I have waited a long time for this knowledge and have cried, lost sleep, and became angry by waiting. But one thing that hit me wail hearing Andrew talk over waiting on the lord after knowing that was when he quoted Psalm 27:13-14

13 I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.

14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

He also says that waiting is not fun. And oh so true, but waiting is so important in our walk as Christians. What my waiting brought was contentment. It funny but i said that i was content before i found that i was not excepted for early decision. Truth be told i was not. But i have learned so much these past 9 week or so, I became aware of my need for God. I have grown in my walk like i never have before. Knowing and trusting he with all that i hoped and longed for was hard at first but when i really started believing it, life became so easy. I have loved how my life has been peaceful and just about living to the fullest and serving him. I discovered what my spiritual gifts where, desires i had, hopes i had killed, and new butterfly's in my stomach.

I took a break from blogging as you may had seen and i am planing on being back now but i would recommended most diffidently that if you are in a place of confusion detox form technology for just a small amount of time and go get coffee with someone else. IT helped me. But i am a little different then other people. :)

I am not working on finishing extremely strong in AP Macro Economics's. Working on about 20 art projects that i will get done before the end of the year. Graduation invitations, senior dinner and tea, and lost of college and summer job stuff. Its quite epic.

But to sum up this post...... waiting on the lord is really hard and its not full of easy times but it is the time where you find who you are in Christ and how to live instead of a mundane life style and i came out in a pretty good spot. :)

Songs i listened to on Pandora wail writing this post......
gray or Blue
Jaymay

Little Romance
Ingride michealson

Be ok
Ingride Michealson

Breath In
Frou Frou


How Lucky We are
Meiko

You and I
Ingrid Michealson

Better
Regina Spektor

*All I Want Is you
Tristan Prettyman

Happier
A Fine Frenzy

Reasons to love you
Meiko

Anyone can cook/ cooking with my cousins

So i know that i have taken FOREVER to post and i am sorry. But my cousins are KICK BUTT awesome cooks and i would just like to say that the title of this post is not a reflection on them but on me and Steven. :) Now here are my most excellent recipes for the month of march........

French Crepes
I made crepes with my cousins wail i was on spring break in Phoenix, and they are SUPPER easy to make.
The recipe is just flour, sugar, eggs, salt, milk, and butter.
Mix the dry ingredients together, then mix the butter, milk, and little beaten eggs together and them pour that in with the dry bowl. After it is all mixed and soft looking grab a 1/4 cup and your ready to go.

*Things to remember......
1-Brush the pan EVERY time before pouring the batter in.
2-Pour the batter and then move the pan so you get a nice, even, thin, crepe.
3-And my last advice to you is be bold, flip the crepe. As Julia said you have to have enough courage.Take that risk and laugh if you fail and perfect it for who you are. :)

Greek Taziki Sauce
This sauce will give you one of the best dip/condiments of all time. I also think that it is a really good healthy substitute to sour cream sometimes.
It is Greek yogurt, chives, lemon, garlic, parsley, salt, pepper, and cucumber.
*CAUTION* this is a recipe that depends on how and what you like, you will want to try it your self first and then make it the way you like it. And it takes time to getting it right every time. I will not tell you the cup and tablespoon amount for me but i will say, don't do a lot of lemon it can over power it, garlic takes time to really develop its flavor, and the cucumber needs to be dice but still pretty big so that you get a good amount of it and a nice texture.

Peanut butter Kawala crisp bars
this is a really good but healthy alternative to rice crispy treats. It is honey, coco powder, peanut butter, and Kawala Crisps(organic cereal). You heat up the peanut butter and honey. once they are pretty smooth you pour in the coco powder and after that is all mix in you pour in the Kawala crisps and mix together it all. After its pretty cool put it into a pan where you push it some what together so that you have thick bars. then cut and enjoy.

Last is Sausage pasta(of cores i wrote a pasta post)
Aunt Terry made this really good pasta that me and mom remade/ tried to make.Aunt Terry's was spice sausage, marinara pasta and then a mild sausage marinara version. Me and mom worked with what we had which was a mildly spice sausage pasta with whole wheat penne rigate pasta. The sauce was a marinara sauce with white wine and tomatoes, and we put it in with the sausage when it was about done. It was fantastic and of course we put Parmesan cheese on the top which little eminently melted on to it. :)

These recipes where really good and the fact that they all where done with or associated with my family makes them even better. My cousins and me had not hung out really since i was little and i went to phoenix with Katy for spring break so just hanging out with them once again was really amazing and i miss them very much. LOVE Y'ALL TONS!!!!!

Dark Chocolate Cheesecake

The crust


CHOCOLATE!!!!!


What is in it. :)


Where getting there


Mixing time


Pouring the mixing the crust




Its so beautiful *snifful


Where supper amazing!!!!!

"What do you love to do?" .............."EAT!!!!!!"

So the month of February went by and its now time to post my cooking blog. I have pictures and so i could not post this with out them and so i had to wait for when my moms computer fond its way back to me. SO here are my recipes........

First for single awareness day formally known as valentines day me and my mom made a FABULOUS dessert. It is a dark chocolate cheese cake. It consist of......(this is so good that i actually decide you had to make it just as it says with out "i thinks" mixed with it.)

Ingredients

Crust

• 24 chocolate wafer cookies (from one 9-ounce package)
• 1 tablespoon sugar
• 1/4 cup (1/2 stick) butter, melted

Filling

• 1 9.7-ounce bar Scharffen Berger 70% Cocoa Bittersweet Chocolate,* chopped
• 4 (8-ounce) packages cream cheese, room temperature
• 1 1/4 cups plus 2 tablespoons sugar
• 1/4 cup unsweetened cocoa powder (preferably Scharffen Berger)
• 4 large eggs

Topping

• 3/4 cup whipping cream
• 6 ounces Scharffen Berger 70% Cocoa Bittersweet Chocolate,* chopped
• 1 tablespoon sugar

OR

• Bittersweet chocolate curls

Preparation

For crust:
Preheat oven to 350°F. Butter 9-inch-diameter springform pan with 3-inch-high sides. Blend cookies in processor until finely ground; blend in sugar. Add melted butter and process until well blended. Press crumbs evenly onto bottom (not sides) of prepared pan. Bake just until set, about 5 minutes. Cool while preparing filling. Maintain oven temperature.

For filling:
Stir chopped chocolate in metal bowl set over saucepan of simmering water until melted and smooth. Remove bowl from over water; cool chocolate until lukewarm but still pourable. Blend cream cheese, sugar, and cocoa powder in processor until smooth. Blend in eggs 1 at a time. Mix in lukewarm chocolate. Pour filling over crust; smooth top. Bake until center is just set and just appears dry, about 1 hour. Cool 5 minutes. Run knife around sides of cake to loosen. Chill overnight.

For topping:
Stir cream, 6 ounces chocolate, and sugar in heavy medium saucepan over low heat until smooth. Cool slightly. Pour over center of cheesecake, spreading to within 1/2 inch of edge and filling any cracks. Chill until topping is set, about 1 hour. Do ahead: Can be made 3 days ahead. Cover with foil and keep refrigerated.

Release pan sides. Transfer cheesecake to platter. (Top with chocolate curls). Let stand 2 hours at room temperature before serving.

SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!

The next recipe that i did was spaghetti and yes this is a little lame after our chocolate cheese cake fiasco but it was still fun to make and eat. And i am not trying to be Martha Stewart meats Babara Walters. But i made it with already made in a jar sauce and whole wheat noodles which where actually really good. Topped with parmasan cheese and toasted bread with butter it was quite enjoiyable. I put a little parmasan cheese in with the noodles after i drained the watter and it was a little weired but it made it a liitle more fun. But tricks that i use when i make pasta are......

• Put your faucet on just hot water and let it heat up so you start with hot water and don't have to wait as long for it to boil.
  
• Put olive oil in with the noodles and water so they wont stick together after you drain them and so they don't have a weird texture if you put olive oil in after you've drained the water.
  
• wine makes any pasta sauce better. But there's a line don't cross it.

The third thing i made this month was more PASTA!!!!! ok so this is kinda cheating kinda not. I wanted to improve or try changing up my homemade pasta recipe that me and mom invented. The cream and Parmesan cheese one. What i did was used angel hair pasta instead of normal/ spaghetti noodles and it really dose make a difference. Its so much thinner and i think it makes all the difference. And instead of fresh tomato on top i put shrimp in. It was supper good. I think that it could be better than the tomatoes. :)

My forth and final recipe is cookies. I made chocolate chip cookies but made them all different. I made Heath bar chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter chocolate chip(best result is with the peanut butter chips instead of using plan peanut butter from the jar, less oil.) And the ones that i liked the best but where a little weird were snikerdoodle chocolate chip cookies. You make the doe and after you start rolling it and its in the shape you want you roll it in cinnamon-sugar. And some may think this sounds gross but i wanted to make something different and we did not have a hole bunch of stuff.

Those are the 4 for this month and well see if i can get more created next month. :)MAKE THE CHEESE CAKE, ITS AWESOME!!!!!!!! :)

Whiplash. haha you don't know why its called this yet. hehehe I think im very funny. :)

what two say. I have no idea where to start.

Images that come to my head are a painting on display in a museum being critiqued, a episode from fairly odd parents on emotion, Francis chains radical video, and a heart enthroned with pain.

I am the painting, unique beautiful and different. I have been a a museum hall for as long as i can remember. And as people passed me by they enjoyed, watched and saw things that where hidden to them over the years. i never thought anything of it. I was given encouragement and love thought out my time there, and i grew. My colors changed, some faded and some glowed over the years. I working on finding out what i was going to be. But one day i was moved to a new hall in that museum. And i enjoyed the life i had there but thought of the old room i use to be sometimes. After sometime i was able to return on a short expedition to my old little hall. But i was not embraced with open arms; i fond that it was changed. The people that once passed by me and looked on with kind eyes had a tune of disappointed written all over them. They were filled with harsh, ugly, judgmental words. They watched what i did wail i was there. How i appered, what frame i wore, and just how i interacted with my old friends in my similar hall. And if i did anything that demed me unworthy of their time i diffidently heard about it or saw their discontentment. After my expedition was over i when back to my second hall but fond that i was not feeling right. Like i have a new adventurer coming to take me to wear i will truly feel right but i don't know what to do until then. And that disheartens me.

Fairy odd parents is a show i watched with Steven in jr. high. There is an episode where Timmy(the main character) asked his fairy god parents (Cosmo and Wanda) to take away his emotions. And of course you can't just wish them away so they have to come out of you and be put in a box. well timmy has to go to school but he can't allow his emiontons to fall into the wrong hands so Cosmo the most unintelligent and irresponsible of the trio is left in charge of them. The since that comes to mind this week and this weekend was where Cosmo opened up the box and all the emotions ask out who they are against each other. So Angry started beating up Happy, Jealousy and Envy argue about who love's Love more, Fear is hiding under the bed, and bravery is about to jump out the window with common sense is telling him that he should not do it. Wail Cosmo is in terrible trouble telling them all to stop and to put them in the box witch them came out of. And wail its quite comical it was what felt like my life this past week/weekend. All my emendations where out of control wail i was frantically trying to act and be presentable.

Francis Chain has this video that is quite amazing that i really like. Is just a small clip but it is really awesome and it talks about being a radical christian which is something that i am wanting to have more of in my life. And i have spent 10 min. looking of the quote and have not fond it yet so i am going to post this and them add it latter.

But the heart in pain is just a picture in my head right now and maybe a better way to put it is i have a heavy heart. Just maxed out on life. But it is feeling liter, because i meat with Francie today and we talked about who god was. Like we where talking about these thoughts and some other things that i am going thought and them we stopped and started listing off characteristics and just saying who God is and for all my emotions and questions he was the answer because he causes all thing to happen for good, he loves me aboundently, he knows what those people are going thought, and he has all in his hands and under control and i don't have to worry. These where jsut a few of my thoguths about him ofcourse the list was much longer. But i jsut need to wright and get them down and out away from me so i would not worry about them any more. It just m getting them out. SO sorry for my whiplash y'all i did not give you very much clarity hu? Well a cooking blog is coming so just hold on till then. :)