When she comes around

I am sitting and waiting. Literally I am sitting writing a paper waiting and wondering. About life, and this year and everything else in-between.
Finally my thinking was to loud for my own good so I put on spotify and was greeted by a Ben Rector song.

I was first hit by the words that he share of how he will show up when "she" comes around, which I took as him meeting the girl and he was going to show up in some amazing way, however after listening for another minute I was struck by the fact that this girl is technically coming back. For me in this moment I am taking that as she left, and has left this guy waiting. My guess is that he probably showed up poorly, and that he probably got scared and ran for a minute. But that he aware that she is back but also painfully aware of why she left. In this moment I feel stuck by this, and I am choosing to take let these words resinate with me right now. I guess I'm left wondering where I will allow my heart to maintain hope and kindness when i see that some of the men in my life have made mistakes, and if I will choose to come back and not block them out. In the past  have said no but i am fully aware that i want to hold out hope, and where i want to risk, where i want to fight, and that means coming back and knowing hurt will come, but that the risk of allowing hope to take hold of my heart feels to good to be without.