End of the year

Merry CHRISTmass!!!!!!!!

That's right its got Christ in it so no matter what you say happy holiday people the Lord was what came first. :)

I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. I hope that as this year makes its final turn around the bin that you can look back on 2009 and see how many ways people loved you and how you loved others. I hope it was filled with beauty, joy, laughs, hugs, smiles, and dances, and that Gods face shined down upon you. I hope you See that you lived life. And i wish you the same for this coming year. You will be in my prayers when i start thinking about it. Live life to the fullest because it could be over or it could find that the loss of adventurer has creep up on you.

Love you all and i want to say that i have loved living life with you this year and look forward to my adventurers with you next year. :)

What do women want the most?

So yesterday at school i had English, and everyday we have a writing prompt. My class is in the middle of the The Canterbury Tales and we were about to start the Women of Bath. And so our prompt was What do women want most?

Then Mrs. Meyer asked everyone to go around and say one one word that that tells us what their paper was about. The Guys went fist and their answers consisted of love, acceptance, respect, money, and of course A sugar daddy. The Girls where up next and our answers held words like friendship, soul mate, love, and beauty. And we had arguing for both sides of "women don't actually want that", and the guys misunderstanding one of the words and applying it to the wrong concept.

My word was that women was to be pursued. At least i do. What women want do not only apply to what they want out of men. Women want to be seen, heard, respected, accepted, and loved. But don't they have a root of wanting to be pursued by a man in a romantic relationship or by a another person just by a friendship.

I am not every women. But i know that i want to be pursued. I want to be me, and have someone see that and enjoy who i am and purse a relationship with me because of that. I want relationships that are real and hard but worth fighting for and worth the pursuit. I also want to have friendships where i feel like i am being pursued just as much as i am pursuing.

I am not every women but i believe that some where in every women the idea of pursuit is very existent and wanted.

Where the rabbit hole took alice

I love walking. I believe that God gave me weak knees and ankles for me to not be able to run so that i could discover how much i LOVE walking. It clears my head completely its where i have discover dreams and beautiful ideas its where i find and understand my self the best.

Most of the time when i am walking i am in Colorado at Redcloud. I walk thought a forest along a brook and i only hear my thoughts, the water breathing, and the leaves whispering to me. I love it up there and so as i was missing that a few days ago i decided that i would go on a journey. I was going to go walking in my neighborhood. So i grabbed a sweatshirt and my ipod and was on my way. I replaced the awful sound of cars driving with Nicole Nordaman albums(Thank you for offering all her songs to listen to at once itunes).

As i started walking away from the intersection by my house i walked past a bridge/ water way area i noticed that there were no cars, no houses, and no road it was just a open field where house property's backed up against and the water from flooding ran.

I had two chooses
- The road that i had driven on for the past 8 years of my life which offered safety, history, and predictability, or
-The brook area that i have never put a foot into, a place of questions and unfamiliarity

My mind went through countless logic. And as my heart pounded for the journey and excitement my logical side of me said "no". I took a step. And i went on The Road Less Traveled. I walked along the stream that was only existing because of the rain we had received a few days before but it was wonderful. I slowly made my way away from the real world and logic toward my wonderland.

As i walked i felt me. I felts like the essence of who i am was crystal clear. Anything that was not me leaked out of my hands as i walked in waste high plants. I was in a wondrous place just on the outskirts of reality. I could see the houses and the streets where busy cars passed by. But yet i was in a magical place that was so beautiful. With the sun setting and its breath taking light shining thought the oak tree's which were in the middle of the field with a water area just feet away.

I truly felt like Alice. Although my adventurer did not include a sycophantic smiling cat, and a queen who's bipolar, I held a scene of not having any idea about where my feet would take me. And how curious that this is what came to me as i walked.

My walk took me places i would have never thought i would go yet just by making a spontaneous decision to do something that i would not have before i got to see life in a fantastic yet simple way.

Dad, Dancing, and Dreaming

Growing up i remember dancing a lot with my family. We always dance. All someone has to do is get on youtube or itunes and blast a song and it starts. One of the biggest memory's i remember of my family dancing is in Portland, Oregon. I was about 6, K was 8, and S was 3. And dad had gotten home from work and put on one of his favorite bands growing up. Styx. Al thought i had no idea who they where i loved how they where just such an essence of my dad. One thing i loved was that both me and K have a sound that dad "gave" us, like K's is Lady because dad would put K's name in the chorus and take out Lady. Mine was Lorelei. And its a little odd that this was the sound i got but i LOVED that it was my song. The up beat tempo and the reference to a butterfly were all very me when i was 6. We dance and sang this songs with dad, and i totally remember all the moves that we had to go with the dance.

For some reason this song and Butterfly fly away came into my head today and when ever i here it just makes me think of my dad. There is a link to the song on youtube if you wan to here them. :)

My dad holds an image of dreaming to me. And i hope to always hold that image in my head along with dancing around the living room with him and K when we were younger.

Here is the awesome song
Lorelei
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E6RNa5M__qg

Butterfly fly away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrL8ndJRgcQ&feature=player_embedded

Ok so i had a really meaningful post that i am working on, but them had to check something on my AP government class page and came across this video that i watched in class and its one of my favorite campaigning videos of all time check it out.

Time for Some Campaignin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adc3MSS5Ydc&feature=player_embedded

And then on youtube i fond this and it made me laugh as well.(truthfully i really liked a lot of her skits that she did some where bad but some were really funny as well)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1decRVDV0U

Thursday nights

Thursday nights make me happy. The reason why is because of what they hold. On Thursday nights Tim comes over and watches the office and community. I totally and completely love it. Because these shows make me laugh and because both Tim and Steven make me laugh so its a goo combo. And although some of you may not really enjoy the office and may not know what community is let me give you a taste of them. :)

The office-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Pw_eX97TUw

Community-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljzQ-YOZ3bI&feature=related

I'm still alive. :)

My life has been crazy and a lot of thoughts have been coming in and out so i don't have time now but i will be back soon. :)